Do you see these two pictures? I sure do.
It is so hard for me to see the girl on the left because she was so unhappy and covered it up with a smile. It might not look like it, but I was wallowing in self-pity, anxiety, and some really strong demons. My mind was whirling with any bad thing you can imagine and I couldn’t tame my own thoughts, much less anything else.
It’s really challenging to share how horrible I felt about life, my circumstances and my own self-worth. And, I wish I could say this was the only time I struggled, but it would be far from the truth.
For freedom Christ has set us free; stand firm therefore, and do not submit again to a yoke of slavery. Galatians 5:1
This particular instance was around the same time that I had stopped reading my Bible, talking to God and writing GEM. I had had an experience that rocked my world and I had responded with guilt and shame.
I basically went into hiding. However, I couldn’t hide too much because I still had to be a mom, wife, daughter and friend.
Not that I was any good at any one of them at this point.
It was such a low point in my life and just so you know, when they talk about the “dark pit” it’s for a reason…it’s freaking dark!!!
You have put me in the depths of the pit, in the regions dark and deep. Psalms 88:6
When I look at these pictures, I see two people that are very different. And, it’s not even about my weight loss…it’s about the complete overhaul that God did in my body, mind, heart and soul.
He met me right where I was and led me to a place that I could never have dreamed I’d get to be since I couldn’t see two feet in front of me.
I can’t place my finger on the exact moment that changed my life, but I do know God placed strategic people in my life so that I could find hope again for a brighter future.
Today, I want to celebrate and at the same time encourage anyone else that may be where the person on the left used to be.
I have so much more growing and developing to do, but I am truly grateful for God lifting me out of my own “dark pit” and placing me on solid ground that is steeped in worship, prayer, praise and His Word. I will never be able to get very far without my Lord and Savior and I’m so glad that He doesn’t let me!!!
I really hope that if you find yourself in a bad place, you will look to the only ONE who can rescue you from yourself.
Some Wisdom for Today: Proverbs 27:23 – Know well the condition of your flocks, and give attention to your herds….