We all have good and bad days and sometimes, we even have good and bad within one day. The latter is exactly how I would define my last few weeks.
Of course, sitting on a Caribbean beach for eight days will do a body good and can certainly constitute as a good (actually awesome) day. But, if you are riddled with anxiety, panic and fear…well, there is definitely some bad going on during that awesome day. Eeek!
Although I was battling a constant panic attack, I did have the wherewithal to keep my eyes on God and continually talk to Him about my struggle. He did not free me from it, but He did help me get through the worst of it.
Because of this experience I’ve decided that God is preparing me and refueling me for what is next to come.
For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong. 2Corinthians 12:10
No, I don’t think that God has something bad in store, therefore, getting me panic ready (though, I can honestly say it feels like that in the midst of an anxiety episode).
What I do think is that God is reminding me that anxiety is something only He can help me with and only He can get me through. It may come as a surprise, but I can all too often get too big for my britches.
Say it ain’t true!!! Sheesh!!
In fact, I’ve had quite a few years of panic free living and it’s given me a sense of Super Woman syndrome because without my panic disorder, I’m pretty tough. Throw in a little panic attack, though, and I’m pure toast and I’m heading straight to God for strength, security, comfort and peace.
Ah ha!!! Funny, how it works that way!
God knows how fickle we are as humans and probably shakes His head often at our lack of relationship with Him when things are going our way. It’s a sad state that speaks volumes of our inconsistent faith and obedience.
Hardships are a surefire way to get us to look up instead of inward.
Regardless of the name of our sin, weakness or issue – the one thing that can help us tremendously while kneeling before our Heavenly Father begging for mercy is the attitude we take when tackling our burdens.
This attitude can turn a bad situation into a good one and a good situation into a bad one. It all depends on the path we choose.
But they who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint. Isaiah 40:31
I choose to see my recent struggle as refueling my dependency on God and breaking me down into the tool He wants me to be instead of what I think I should be. I have no idea where this path will take me, but I do know that God will be with my every step.
Some Wisdom for Today: Proverbs 29:25 – The fear of man lays a snare, but whoever trusts in the Lord is safe.