The ‘Insecurity Creeps’

Tuesday morning was nice and quiet.  My husband and boys were all gone for the day and I was on my way to a lovely day filled with time to get things done without the constant interruptions I normally encounter.  Then it all went south.

The ‘insecurity creeps’ set up shop in my head and my heart.

You know what I’m talking about…it’s those thoughts of inadequacy, incompetence and loneliness.  Those creeps zoomed in and completely took over!!!  AND I LET THEM!

“The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full.” John 10:10 (NIV – The Journey)

Somewhere along the course of my morning, I took my focus off of God and put it on myself.

I first started by replaying each comment made by my husband and nitpicking them to see if he loved me.  I then looked at the house and realized I had much more to do to get it cleaned and perfect.  Sadly, I looked in the mirror and saw wrinkles and blemishes.  And finally, I looked within my heart and found emptiness.  I was feeling awful and completely self-consumed!

How did this happen?  Why?   And, now what do I do?

Well, I did what any girl would do.  I called my good friend and cried.  Poor thing, I babbled on and on about gaining weight and being insecure.  That’s when I knew I’d been had!  Thankfully, I had called the right person because she slapped me around and told me to buck up because it could be a lot worse!!!  Thanks, my friend!!!

Those ‘insecurity creeps’ snuck in when I was I by myself and feeling good that I was going to conquer the day because I ROCK!  I found out pretty quickly that I don’t ROCK and that I’m useless without my Father whom gives me strength, courage and SECURITY!

“For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.”  Romans 8:38-39 (NIV – The Journey)

We all deal with insecurities.  We all deal with rejection.  However, when we start feeling this way, what do we immediately do?  Thankfully, I called the right person who didn’t allow me to wallow in self-pity.  She was a good choice.  How many times have I made the wrong choice and stayed in the hole of rejection and self doubt…plenty!

Remember – you are never alone in this world (even though it may feel like it).  There is a God who loves you enough to send His Son to show us how to live and gave His life so that we may have a relationship with the Almighty Father!

No ‘insecurity creep’ can keep me from the knowledge that God loves me and Jesus saved me!!!

Who do you call when insecurity and rejection come calling?  God is the best choice!  Open up the Bible and listen to what He has to say!

Some Wisdom for Today:  Proverbs 19:21 – Many are the plans in the man’s heart, but it is the Lord’s purpose that prevails.

6 Responses

  1. Hi Meg! Just a note to thank you for sharing your life and faith with all of us!
    God Bless You!
    Peg Fenimore

  2. I love this one Meg. How many days has that happened to me too?!? I call Margaret. I get on my knees and pray…that is, when I REALIZE what’s happening. Sometimes it goes on for quite awhile before I get a clue! I saw a verse the other day in Rev. about the “dragon” wishing to destroy the “woman” with water flowing from his mouth. Reminded me that those messages that make me feel like I’m drowning are not from the Lord. He loves us, is with us, and wants us to be free. Have a great day today, Meg. Always looking forward to your writing!

    • YES! One of the hardest things is to ‘realize’ you are giving way to insecurity!!! I love the reference to the lady in Revelations!!! That is SO true!!!! Thanks for sharing! Love you, girl!

  3. Your confessions are my confessions Meg. It reminds me that “we are normal”. I am far beyond your years and I still struggle with the same things. That’s not meant to be a discouragement. It just reminds me that I will need Him until I am no more. Keeping a check on my thought process helps when I find myself thinking on the “non productive thoughts”. Phil 4 addresses these thoughts. I love vs 8 & 9. It sums it up for me. 8. Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things. 9 says Those things, which ye have both learned, and received, and heard, and seen in me, DO: and the God of peace shall be with you. His promise is there. I asked the Lord to help me keep a check on what I was thinking about. He is faithful. Each time I catch myself thinking about a negative He reminds me to think about what I am thinking about. My attitude quickly changes. Then it is my responsiblity to change the channel.

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