Tuesday morning was nice and quiet. My husband and boys were all gone for the day and I was on my way to a lovely day filled with time to get things done without the constant interruptions I normally encounter. Then it all went south.
The ‘insecurity creeps’ set up shop in my head and my heart.
You know what I’m talking about…it’s those thoughts of inadequacy, incompetence and loneliness. Those creeps zoomed in and completely took over!!! AND I LET THEM!
“The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full.” John 10:10 (NIV – The Journey)
Somewhere along the course of my morning, I took my focus off of God and put it on myself.
I first started by replaying each comment made by my husband and nitpicking them to see if he loved me. I then looked at the house and realized I had much more to do to get it cleaned and perfect. Sadly, I looked in the mirror and saw wrinkles and blemishes. And finally, I looked within my heart and found emptiness. I was feeling awful and completely self-consumed!
How did this happen? Why? And, now what do I do?
Well, I did what any girl would do. I called my good friend and cried. Poor thing, I babbled on and on about gaining weight and being insecure. That’s when I knew I’d been had! Thankfully, I had called the right person because she slapped me around and told me to buck up because it could be a lot worse!!! Thanks, my friend!!!
Those ‘insecurity creeps’ snuck in when I was I by myself and feeling good that I was going to conquer the day because I ROCK! I found out pretty quickly that I don’t ROCK and that I’m useless without my Father whom gives me strength, courage and SECURITY!
“For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.” Romans 8:38-39 (NIV – The Journey)
We all deal with insecurities. We all deal with rejection. However, when we start feeling this way, what do we immediately do? Thankfully, I called the right person who didn’t allow me to wallow in self-pity. She was a good choice. How many times have I made the wrong choice and stayed in the hole of rejection and self doubt…plenty!
Remember – you are never alone in this world (even though it may feel like it). There is a God who loves you enough to send His Son to show us how to live and gave His life so that we may have a relationship with the Almighty Father!
No ‘insecurity creep’ can keep me from the knowledge that God loves me and Jesus saved me!!!
Who do you call when insecurity and rejection come calling? God is the best choice! Open up the Bible and listen to what He has to say!
Some Wisdom for Today: Proverbs 19:21 – Many are the plans in the man’s heart, but it is the Lord’s purpose that prevails.