Fall weather, family, friends, football and cozy evenings in front of the fireplace – what more could a girl ask for? All of these are wrapped up in the Thanksgiving weekend for my family. It is the one time of the year when everyone gathers together to romp and rip through my parent’s house. We scrapbook, do crafts with the kids, the guys play golf, the girls talk, laugh, cry and we all eat!
Every year, I come away absolutely exhausted from the festivities and fanfare, which are indicative from being a part of a large, loud and fun family! I wouldn’t miss it for the world!
This year was different since it’s the first Thanksgiving without Dad. As I thought of my blessings, I realized I had to go past the surface of niceties (i.e. thankful for spouse, children, friends, etc.) to really figure out what the pieces of good fortune are in my life. The list surprised me immensely!
THE TOP FIVE THINGS MEG IS THANKFUL FOR:
- I am thankful for suffering. – CRAZY! I know, but I would not be as strong as I am today without suffering through trials in my life. I do not learn by watching others. Unfortunately, I am a hands-on kind of student. This really sucks and I wish it wasn’t the way I work, but it is. I would love to forego the painful events, but God has different plans for me.
- I am thankful for fear. – WHAT IN THE WORLD?! Fear has held me back for a long time. It has crawled into my head and set up camp. The war it has waged has been with an onslaught of negative thinking, loneliness, panic, depression, laziness and a load of other garbage. I am joyful to claim that God and my savior, Jesus Christ, have been enlisted to fight this war for me and I’m finally giving them the control to call the shots.
- I am thankful for panic. – NO SHE DIDN’T! An anxious heart, mind and body have consumed my whole being for almost as long as I can remember. I’m beginning to feel a panic of a different sort these days. That is the panic of dying tomorrow and not having anything to show for the talents and gifts I was given by God at birth. It’s not a full-fledged panic attack. It is a slight nudging of my heart through a whisper that I cannot ignore any longer.
- I am thankful for my failures. – SEEMS STRANGE! For one, this reminds me that I have gotten off my rear end a couple of times and I’ve tried a few things. Secondly, I’ve learned how to be a better wife, mother and friend because I have failed those precious to me and they have been gracious in the midst of my mistakes. My failures have humbled me and driven me towards my Maker.
- I am thankful for good health. – MOST IMPORTANT! In the past year, I have watched dear loved ones lose their battle with cancer and I’ve come to realize how precious a body in good working condition is. Good health is something I have taken for granted. I am truly grateful for it this year.
As I contemplated my blessings, I realized I am at a crossroads. I have the opportunity to go right (towards a lifetime of mediocrity); or left (towards a lifetime of insignificance) or I can forge ahead and DO what I was born to do! I can wish and dream all day long about encouraging others through writing, but if I don’t actually write something IT WON’T WORK…duh! I’m slow sometimes!
When I dug a little deeper, I found that my world has been wrapped up in a small little comfortable bubble. Life up till now has been about me, my happiness, my comfort and my will. God is bursting that bubble as He teaches me what His will is and how He wants me to lead my life.
I am not going to pretend I am perfect. I am not going to impress with any degrees or knowledge that I don’t have. I am going to share my journey. I invite you to join me.
Question of the Day:
What are you thankful for?
Some Wisdom for Today: Proverbs 21:21 – He who pursues righteousness and love finds life, prosperity and honor.